Everyday there is a song that goes with us wherever we go, or a song that would fit perfectly in any given situation of our life, or a song that you just haven't heard yet, but you are eager to discover...
Whatever the case may be, this will be a space dedicated to show anyone who runs into this blog, the song that was stuck in my head any given day, the song I would listen to if..., or just to give a simple recommendation of what I think is a worth-listening song...
"When you fucked grandpa did he tell you that he loved you? Did he hold you till the sun did rise and did he look into your eyes and ask you to fellate him, and stick a finger or two in his ass..."
*THIS IS JUST A LATE FILLER, THOUGH IT BRINGS PUBERTY MEMORIES.
*AN CLARIFICATION: This is a late post, which date is fake as well. Here's what happened, I had the song, but then life happened and I completely forgot about posting it. So, here's this song instead, I'll save the other one for later.
"One more point of contention, I need some intervention, approached with vague intentions, betray my short attention span, the distance, bridge the border, beg forgiveness, round the corner..."
"Everytime I look for you the sun goes down and I stumble when this whole thing runs aground, I left another message, you are never around, but everytime I look for you the sun goes down once more, will the last one out, please shut the door?"
*LATE POST: I know, I know, I've been a lazy person lately and I should feel bad. On the other hand I owe you a story, so I will make it up to you. Remember about my sudden moment of clarity I told you about in HERE? Well, in that precise moment I decided that I don't have to answer that e-mail, I know I said I would, but I just really don't have to, don't feel like it anymore, because after all, I don't owe that courtesy.
When I reread the e-mail, my clarity moment made perfect sense, your actions made perfect sense as well. I understand them, but at the same time I don't and it troubles me. I would have preferred a straight and harsh statement than the distance and all the evasive actions, at the end the results were the same but I was left a bit bitter.
Over the last years I've been nothing but nice, and blindly, maybe a bit too much, that I ended up, foolishly, shooting myself in the foot, with your (maybe involuntary) small share, of course. Perhaps I cared too much and was never stopped in my tracks or maybe I was but didn't see the signs. Who knows, it's passed.
I guess I kind of answered it here, so for the sake of completeness, let me say the following: I'm glad you could vent with what you wrote, I'm also glad you cared enough to do it. I also like the fact that you are reaching out and looking for the ones you care because I always had this impression that everybody else was the one who had to reach out and look for you... Regarding myself, I'm fine, you could say, but not how I wish to be. I'm in the same geographical place. I miss things too and I also lost a shoulder to lean on. I'm not sorry about the things I did and how I did them, they were honest. The only thing I regret is having said 'sorry' when I didn't have to.
Although I care and I'm here for you, it is probably the sense of wanting more that does not allow me to say and offer something right now. So, it is undefined.
"Push it out, fake a smile, avert disaster, just in time. I need a drink, cause in a while worthless answer from friends of mine. It's dumb to ask, cool to ignore girls possess me, but they're never mine..."
"I would wish upon a star, but that star, it doesn't shine, so read my book with a boring ending, a short story of a lonely guy..."
Artist: Blink 182
Song: I Miss You
Album: Blink 182
Year: 2003
"Hello there, the angel from my nightmare, the shadow in the background of the morgue, the unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley, we can live like Jack and Sally if we want, where you can always find me..."
"Where are you and I'm so sorry, I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight. I need somebody and always this sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting every time..."
"Like indecision to call you and hear your voice..."
*A CLARIFICATION: I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WHICH SONG TO POST, SO HERE ARE THE ONES THAT CONVINCED ME THE MOST ON MY SHUFFLE JOURNEY...
Artist: Blink 182
