Artist: Hard-Fi
Song: Help Me Please
Album: Once Upon a Time In The West
Year: 2007
"Breaking down on the stairs, hello loneliness, hello despair, all of this, all of it wrong, you won't ever come home..."
"They can take what they please, they can take the blame, everything, everything is free, have it on me..."
"Help me please, I'm in need 'cause being alone scares the life out of me..."
*A TALE: I'm not blue or anything like that at this moment, but this song is so special to me, I feel so identified, you'll see... When something comes as a surprise, there is a scope of reactions, the most common being doing something or doing nothing... Some years ago something came as an enormous surprise, I don't know if my reaction was out of the shock it caused (although at the moment I didn't acknowledge that shock and sometimes I still don't) but I think I chose the second one. It all happened very quickly and decisions taken were rather drastic, as it was happening I remember sitting on the stairs of a now empty house, there were people suggesting this and that, at that moment my mind was blank. There were also people who took advantage of the situation and literally took what they wanted to take, and at that moment I didn't care, I seriously tried to, but I just couldn't, I guess I just wanted to assimilate the magnitude of the situation, just wanted to be at ease, not to give to much importance to it all... I played it cool, I guess somehow shocked (without any acknowledgement of it), but cool, or at least that's what I want to think.
After all that trance went by, I could start to take some "benefits" out of it, and everything seemed very normal, and I was just waiting, wary of the very moment it dawned on me, I thought then that the assimilation process had ended, but it had not. It is something to be careful about, not the kind of thing you could go and say: "hey everybody, I have got something to tell you", no it isn't and I feel so awkward when I have to cover the truth and lie. Since it happened, there has been a person I've been meaning to tell, but it seems that destiny, through some of its tools like the lack of interest from the other part, indecision, and some other "fortuitous" situations, has been preventing me from telling her or anyone... And now I'm not really sure I want to, maybe that was destiny's roll in it, like if it knew that for some reason I was not meant to tell her, or maybe I am, but not now, who the fuck knows! Nobody knows a damn thing in this life...
It has been a quite strange experience, one that marks your life, not the one I would wish to happen to somebody else, but I have learned, I have matured, I have thought, I'm still doing it, A LOT! I've also become a bit bitter, I admit it, although I try not to, but hopefully I've become stronger too, I have gotten to know who is who and finally, for God's sake, I think I'm still assimilating! I try not to let it get to me, and ultimately like the phrase says: "Every successful person has a painful story and every painful story has a successful ending, so accept the pain and get ready for success" and I hope/feel I'm on the brink of something really big...
And remember... If you liked it, buy it...
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