Artist: Blink 182
Song: Everytime I Look for You
Album: Take off Your Pants and Jacket
Year: 2001
"One more point of contention, I need some intervention, approached with vague intentions, betray my short attention span, the distance, bridge the border, beg forgiveness, round the corner..."
"Everytime I look for you the sun goes down and I stumble when this whole thing runs aground, I left another message, you are never around, but everytime I look for you the sun goes down once more, will the last one out, please shut the door?"
"One more point of contention, I need some intervention, approached with vague intentions, betray my short attention span, the distance, bridge the border, beg forgiveness, round the corner..."
"Everytime I look for you the sun goes down and I stumble when this whole thing runs aground, I left another message, you are never around, but everytime I look for you the sun goes down once more, will the last one out, please shut the door?"
*LATE POST: I know, I know, I've been a lazy person lately and I should feel bad. On the other hand I owe you a story, so I will make it up to you. Remember about my sudden moment of clarity I told you about in HERE? Well, in that precise moment I decided that I don't have to answer that e-mail, I know I said I would, but I just really don't have to, don't feel like it anymore, because after all, I don't owe that courtesy.
When I reread the e-mail, my clarity moment made perfect sense, your actions made perfect sense as well. I understand them, but at the same time I don't and it troubles me. I would have preferred a straight and harsh statement than the distance and all the evasive actions, at the end the results were the same but I was left a bit bitter.
Over the last years I've been nothing but nice, and blindly, maybe a bit too much, that I ended up, foolishly, shooting myself in the foot, with your (maybe involuntary) small share, of course. Perhaps I cared too much and was never stopped in my tracks or maybe I was but didn't see the signs. Who knows, it's passed.
I guess I kind of answered it here, so for the sake of completeness, let me say the following: I'm glad you could vent with what you wrote, I'm also glad you cared enough to do it. I also like the fact that you are reaching out and looking for the ones you care because I always had this impression that everybody else was the one who had to reach out and look for you... Regarding myself, I'm fine, you could say, but not how I wish to be. I'm in the same geographical place. I miss things too and I also lost a shoulder to lean on. I'm not sorry about the things I did and how I did them, they were honest. The only thing I regret is having said 'sorry' when I didn't have to.
I guess I kind of answered it here, so for the sake of completeness, let me say the following: I'm glad you could vent with what you wrote, I'm also glad you cared enough to do it. I also like the fact that you are reaching out and looking for the ones you care because I always had this impression that everybody else was the one who had to reach out and look for you... Regarding myself, I'm fine, you could say, but not how I wish to be. I'm in the same geographical place. I miss things too and I also lost a shoulder to lean on. I'm not sorry about the things I did and how I did them, they were honest. The only thing I regret is having said 'sorry' when I didn't have to.
Although I care and I'm here for you, it is probably the sense of wanting more that does not allow me to say and offer something right now. So, it is undefined.
And remember... If you liked it, buy it...
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